ANALOG DREAMS

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The digital photo medium triggers my insatiable need for perfection. I have to control the scene, the light, the outcome. As expected, this need can sometimes stifle creativity and spontaneity.
I truly long to be an artist. I feel that digital doesn't afford me that luxury.
I realized that fact recently when I was gifted an old analog camera and loaded it with expired film.
I am just re-learning this medium and using expired film is a good practice in impermanence and letting go. Letting go of what the outcome will look like or if there even will be one. I can't control the outcome because I can't see it on the back of my camera and perfect it, over and over and over again. I have to click the shutter, let go, and trust.
The ritual of film is fulfilling.
The anticipation of the film being processed and then that satisfying tangible moment of holding a print in my hands.
I am infatuated.
This is a scene I captured at a nude photo workshop I attended. It is far from technical perfection, and yet, I find it truly beautiful.

Belle Ancell Intimate Portraiture

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Dancer/choreographer Noam Gagnon invited me into his home to create intimate portraits of him and it was a photographers dream. White white everywhere! Soft diffused light bounced off white walls and white furniture and into his gorgeous eyes. Noam was completely as ease in front of the camera and we were able to create some stunning fine art nude images of him.

Just another day at the office....

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This was a challenging assignment. Capture behind the scenes images of a nude photography class without capturing the behinds. Thanks to some creative camera angles I was able to do so.
At the end of the day I stole one of the models and found some beautiful window light in the basement to create a portrait of him. It was a fun day. I so love my job.